Good times!

I think we looked cute! End of things is my title! Yee...!

Boyfriend.

So, relationships are hard. They test you in all possible ways, they teach you how to love, how not to love, how to respect, how not to hurt and sometimes, still end in heartache.

For me, a boyfriend is my best friend. I can tell him anything, he can tell me anything. We love, laugh, fight, tease, get sick, become upset, cry, scream and rejoice together. He is my partner and the one I can always count on to support and love me.

Some people spend their entire lives searching for their one "true" love. Others are too afraid of becoming vulnerable and really letting someone have their heart. Every day is packed full of decisions that can determine your life, love and happiness. Make sure those decisions count and are true to you.

I love you.

Words to Live by.

This was forwarded to me (thanks D.) and I think it's amazing awesome.

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends
and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month..

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13.. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their
journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie.
Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone for everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day.. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come.

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. "Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

done with TFA...

Sunday night was a celebration... the culmination of the last 2 years of hard work, sacrifice, blood shed (literally), and amazing achievement. My experience with Teach for America will never be forgotten... it has changed my life in so many ways, and will be a significant factor in what influences my career choices and life decisions.

Happy Memorial Day!

I spent my day doing a bunch of nothing, watching a random movie that had many "boom, boom, fire, fire!!" scenes, and then I prepared for the week ahead of me.

I haven't been to work in 3 days due to a nasty flu, so upon my return I shall most definitely make up for the missed-stress, antagonizing remarks and dreary lives of women- all tomorrow. lol. I actually hope it's a fantastic day, because although I was sick Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, my weekend was a lot better.

Family, fun, sun, food, drinks. The makings of great memories and laughs. Cheers.

"Ego" by Beyonce

she's a little nutty, but you gotta love her!

Ever wonder?

when we ask questions, should we live into the answers? If we are inquiring a specific response, should we delve straight in? I think so, only then can true satisfaction be attained.

Lions, and tigers and bears

I'm not scared of lions and tigers and bears
but I'm scared of loving you
I'm not scared to perform at a sold-out affair,
but I'm scared of loving you
Am I the only one who thinks this is an impossible task?
Is that too much to ask?
Why do we love, love?
If love seems to hate us?

Letting Go.

This week has been jam packed full of revelations. Jesus! I thought I was so well put together, oh well. Who really is? I want to meet them.

How does one "move on". Really?

I've been battling this question because I can't seem to answer it succintly... To end a relationship and then to be in a place where you can start anew and discover another type of love is real, but it's not easy. Depending on where you were when the relationship ended, you may find yourself in different places thereafter. I seem to have been the villain in some relationships, ending it despite its necessity- but still, ending it. In the past it was possible because my feelings were quite clear and my actions only followed. Now it's a bit different, my actions did not follow my feelings- well, I suppose my actions followed particular feelings which I had not thought through. Life is life, and we must deal as it happens! Thank god for the air in my lungs, the beating of my heart and the strength of my brain!

feelings

Sometimes they're quite overwhelming. They remind you of your existence, they let you know that you continue to have air in your lungs, blood running through your veins and the ability to think and live (which is hopefully the case).

Instead of focusing on the First Lady mistouching, I think this touch speaks loads!

"This is the most powerful photo in the series. Remember they are not supposed to shake hands, but the two brothers couldn't resist the historic moment. The black royal cop never imagined in his wildest dream that he would usher a black American president into the British corridors of power. Nice."

Erykah!

I just like this flick...

Goodbye Danity Kane

I actually enjoyed this girl group... oh well.


I always liked Dawn, but, to be honest, you need all of the flavors to make a good recipe: a good girl (Dawn), a smart girl (Shannon), a bad girl (Aubrea), the girl next door (Aundrea) and the background chick (D. Woods). Without all of the pieces to the puzzle, they were always destined to fail... especially working with Diddy...

Seven Pounds

So... I am definitely aware of the fact that I am "late" as far as me just seeing Seven Pounds... I literally just finished watching it and I cannot get it out of my head. It was astonishingly new and extremely powerful, a film that continues to make you wonder long after the credits have finished.

I believe Will Smith has reached his prime, he continues to put out great films that demonstrate his versatility as well as his beauty. This film was beautifully crafted and it just makes you think about life and what is truly important. Lives can end today, tomorrow or the next day... the thing is, you never know. But if you did, how would you choose to spend your last days?

Better yet, how would you feel if you were the cause of others losing their lives? How would you spend your final days, would you strive for redemption, what would you be willing to do? All of these questions and many more are both explored and answering throughout this film.

I actually cried for God's sake! I just don't know what I would do or how I would be mentally if I lost the most important person/ people in my life. I don't know if I could continue living my life in a normal way, or at least in a way similar to what it was before the loss. I'd rather not think of such things; however, accidents happen - fatal accidents in which loved ones are lost everyday. What would you do?

I don't know.

But, if anything, this movie reminded me of how precious time is- especially with loved ones. Remember to tell them that you love them and don't stay mad for too long, it's not worth it.

What's Next?

TFA is almost over... and I'm not sure where my life will take me next. PhD? Marketing? Educating? ...

Hollyhood

So... I've lived in LA for almost two years now, have I become an Angelino? Hell no. Have I learned to love LA? No. Do I still hate it? No. I think I've come a long way.

My family came up from San Diego to visit me today, and they wanted to do "touristy" things, I must admit, I had fun. We ate at Roscoe's Chicken and Waffles, we went to Santa Monica, Beverly Hills, and the Getty... lots,lots, lots. I think I enjoyed myself majorly because my family is crazy and when we're together... it's seriously fun.

Sesame...

ummmm.... the economic status of the US has hit Wall Street, your street and now Sesame Street! 20% of it's work force will be let go (approximately 67 people)

Square Root Day

Today is 3-3-09

3x3=9.

There are only 10 "square root days" in a century, and today was one of them. Yes, this is how bored I am. HELP!

truth v. lies

truth is usually in singular, lies always come in plural.


This is so intriguing to me because if you really take the time to think about it, it's true! Truth is a one way street, oftentimes, but lies take double the the time to construe and execute. ::sigh::

just the best show ever...

Buffy, the Vampire Slayer (Abridged)




...and the reason for LIVING! lol.

A great recipe...

for happiness...

1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate anti-depressant.
2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. Talk to God about what is going on in your life. Buy a lock if you have to.
3. When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement, 'My purpose is to __________ today. I am thankful for ______________'.
4. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
5. Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salmon, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.
6. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
7. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, energy vampires, issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot c ontrol. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
8. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a College kid with a maxed out charge card.
9. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
10. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
11. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
12. You are not so important that you have to win every argument. agree to disagree.
13. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
14. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
15. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
16. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?'
17. Forgive everyone for everything.
18. What other people think of you is none of your business.
19. GOD heals everything - but you have to ask Him.
20. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
21. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch!!!
22. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
23. Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements: I am thankful for __________. Today I accomplished _________.
24. Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.
25. When you are feeling down, start listing your many blessings. you'll be smiling be fore you know it.

and then.

today, someone told me "don't get hurt" and I had to take a moment to think about that. Do I actually have the power of fully protecting myself against any type of negative influences, or selfish indulgences? I believe I can... to a certain extent, and then what?

All I wanna do is be happy... is that so much to ask? I'm still on my path trying to find all that "happiness" is... and it's so hard! Living life is hard, but why can't it be fun?!!? Mine is... most of the time.

History at the Inauguration

Obama Inauguration 01-20-2009

Great times were had... and I don't even think I truly have the time to communicate my experience of being at the Mall and sharing this precious moment in history.  I will... eventually, the thoughts are etched only in my mind... and have been orated via a glass of wine among great friends.

It will come.  :)

gotta love em

"People will soon thank Bush for what he's done"

Really? Is this a true possibility? Well, by george, I hope to God it is a possibility. I don't believe selfless Americans wanted the Bush administration to fail or to permanently stain the accomplishments and prestige of the U.S., but at the same time, it's extremely difficult to feel as if that hasn't actually happened.

Secretary of State, Condoleeza Rice, said these words with true admiration and conviction for both her position and respect for her job and President Bush, but had she had genuine conversations with people who are not directly related to politics? Real citizens of foreign countries who are also fed countless stories of what Bush has done, or not done, in their countries? I, for one, have traveled, and have welcomed conversations in regards to the Bush administration. I was slightly obsessed with what people really thought and felt towards Americans and I got a rude awakening. People abroad have been awaiting change, just like many Americans have... change in the politics, the foreign relations, etc. etc.

Condi might be attempting to mold the end of this administration into one that has been successful.. but it clearly has not been. You may ask that child who knows only what their parents say, or that college student who is influenced by the loudest campus org on campus or colleagues, etc. etc. --either way, we are all ready for change because we've lost brothers, sisters, fathers, mothers, cousins and friends in this so-called war. We've dipped into a time that is scarily similar to the 1920s depression and the list goes on.

"And I am quite certain that when the final chapters are written and it's clear that Saddam Hussein's Iraq is gone in favor of an Iraq that is favorable to the future of the Middle East; when the history is written of a U.S.-China relationship that is better than it's ever been; an India relationship that is deeper and better than it's ever been; a relationship with Brazil and other countries of the left of Latin America, better than it's ever been ... --Condi

I believe it's easy for Condi to say these things because she truly believes them to be accurate, but she needs to leave the White house, she needs to leave the political houses around the world in which "political semantics" rules conversation, and realize that the Bush administration has made life more difficult for me.

Planning for the future, deciding to further my education evermore, moving, working... all of these factors within my life have been effected by the Bush administration and she simply does not get it.

These so-called "relationships" between the US and other countries may seem "stronger, more reliable, positive, etc." but until these relationships effect me in a direct way, I don't believe it or see it as truth.

Merry Christmas AGAIN

I love Christmas, I love it I love it I love it!
I'm not excited about going back to school/ work.

Happy Holidays...

I love the holidays. I love when my family is together, when they are happy and when we can show our love in multiple ways. We show our love through breaking bread, giving presents and spending quality time with one another. This is a special time of the year because families are influenced to look at themselves and give thanks for what they have and hopefully show their love in different ways. Making a symbolic gift, taking a special trip, spending quality time can only lead to having better moments and learning each other that much more. I love the holidays, but why does it have to happen only during a very specific time? Why can’t we feel this way during May or June? Is it because of the winter season and the cold? Scientists have proven that colder weather influences negative moods and depression… is that why?

my thoughts

on liposuction...

I live in the city of "pretty". I live in Los Angeles, where it's better to be a bombshell than have half a brain. I understand why I never really dug LA... I'm a San Diegan to the heart, but what LA represents is the actual problem. Now that I've been here for over a year, I've become accustomed to the happenings, the style and the fun... but, it's still not me.

I had a very close friend recently have liposuction in the abdomen area, and around the back area. I've been completely instrumental in her recovery, and I still cannot really seem to get why someone would go to such high stakes? But, on the other hand, it does make sense that we- as humans- want to look better so that we feel better. There are very few people who have no care about what they look like, or what they're perceived as. My friend is beautiful, on the inside and out, but she still felt like having the procedure done was necessary and worthwhile, so if it makes her happy, why not?

Anyway, the only surgical procedure I've done really put a bad taste in my mouth. It was utterly painful and necessary, but so not planned! I give props to those who consciously decide to undergo such procedures with clear heads and a high level of insight and research... that's how my friend did it, and that's the only way it should be done.

welcome back

wow... it's been a minute, and life is so different... how can I even begin to discuss the changes that have happened? 2009 is in for a doozie!